well me am back and i haven't blogged in a while.cos i been real busy.and man now i'm real down.Vicky's gone.and he's never to return.why did he do this?why did he leave us all?i'm afraid to care and love ppl much after what's happened cos e 4 ppl i really valued have left me to carry on forever.Jega started e procedure a few yrs back,next along SHE came and left my life.saying she din care.along with that had to endure e pain of seeing me dear uncle's untimely demise.now along wid Jega and me uncle vicky has gone never to return.none will noe what i truly feel cos i've never taken anything this bad.but a blow after another is not sumthing i want to have.damn it Vicky u still are e handsome chap i know.u still looked good when i sent u off yest.u broke me down totally.e only person i've ever shed tears for was her.and damn u din think of me did u?u din think of how we,ur brothers will feel if we were to lose u.i've decided never to vare for anyone like i did for e 4 of them.cos all i love will leave sumday and leave me in mortal pain.feelings aren't there to be messed with.but then i noe they'll never fade.i still remember what we clearly did till e time of this day.all i ask is for u to be a brother again in me next life.cos i can never get another like u.

well u know.i've been goin thru 1 shit after another.and ppl are asking me.why is it that when i get ready to pick up e pieces,another puzzle breaks to scatter everythin.why.i swear i don't know.and i don't wanna know.cos i'll just be giving myself more pain and i'll never feel better so.was chatting wid suba last night.and told her how i feel.i just hope i can reunite wid either 1 of them soon. :D anyway me am getting more depressed.so will blog later.peace ya'll and do pray for me dear brother's soul.