whatever i might do, i love u i said
whatever it is,i don't need u she said.
i told her to take away e pain she inflicted.
why shud i,when u brought it so she asks me in return.
this fights are not for u and me.
lovers are what we are meant to be.
to hell wid e faggots who are there to spoil things
to live wid u is all i have been dreaming.
dun let it turn out this way baby.
just dun tell me maybe.
cos e maybe hurts e most.
it's e love that i need.
it's e love that i want u to be e host of.
just like how u held me once.
i wasn't appreciative then.
i need ur love now.
and i guess i'll never get it again.
is this what we had in mind?
will my love withstand e test of time.
all i noe is we've planned it so.
till e extent of seeing our kids grow.
why then did u have to pull e plug.
and have us both end it so.
all i noe is i'll never go.
and all i want is to have u so.
all i ask is for a chance in return.
for e love that u'll be given.
why are we,so blind to see.
that e ones we hurt are u and me.
all i need is that 1 chance to let me hear u say
"I LOVE U BABY"


well.wat a way to start my post.hahax.well.been very busy recently.and e worst thing is.imma broke.haiz.i oni got like 60 or 70 cents on me now.and it sucks.damn it.haiz.i dono ah.all my money gone.cos i am sum1 doing charity u see.i always end up spending my cash on others more than on myself.haiz.loaned a few ppl money.and ain't small amnts.but now i'm broke and i need a loan myself.wtf.my mommy has gone to india for god noes how long.and i can't even ask her to trasfer me some cash.hahax.gone.gone.i think this is e sign that all is gonna end soon.cos i'm losing everything of value to me 1 by 1.once i lose my clothes then that will be e end lorx.oh yeah i went to HITRAN'S hse yest. and so damn cool.i so adore her whole family except for 1 person who freaked me out.damn.so scary sia.aiyo.hahax.i and her father are fwens.mwahaha.and i can be her mommy's bf.lolx.the mommy say i look very boyish.so that means i'm a boy and i can be her fwen.so which makes me her bf.right anot?weeee.haiz.my stomach is starting to hurt again.i coughing like hell.and i'm afraid i'll get a fever again.haiz.i now dowanna die so soon.hahax.i see that there's a reason to live.and it's obviously HER.so i've kinda stopped drinking liaox.i can't drink no more.i get sick after i drink.i dono why.and it sucks.was my only companion and it's all gone now.haiz her prezzie is still with me.i so wanna put it on for her myself. just like a thali.and let her be happy.but hell she hates me more each day.haiz.she blames me for everything.EVERY SINGLE THING.damn.but i'll never blame her.cos i noe i oni love her.and u dun blame e one u love.sum1 told me just now.she might seem this way but deep down she cares.haiz.i wish it were thru.i just wanna show her that i've changed.that's all.and i ask for that 1 chance.but hell gonna be 7 mths since i waited :D.but nvm.i'll wait.i dun mind.oh and b4 i forget.i think e singapore government also doesn't want me.cos everyone younger than me goin camp ler.but imma still stuck at hm and rotting.call me up arses.i so wanna go to NS and get away frm everything.save me GOD

*my love for her shall never fade nor end.*