For I can't help falling in love with you.

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait

Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you

Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me

and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go..

THEJOKER! :D

Magic ah eh.
22 this yr.
~~15 Sept.~~

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Taking back my love

~~Wednesday, August 11, 2010~~

9:17 PM

i dream of u each lonely night,
hoping to have u by my side.
yearning for the day to hold u in my arms,
when i know then that i'll always be your charm.
i know what we're feeling is not at all right,
but do make e effort and nvr live a lie.
u know what u want,
and i know it too.
to be together,
where there'll be only ME and YOU.
a wholesome future i promise u,
i'll do my best to be with u.
if my faith can help in anyway,
i hope u help to pave the way.
i just pray before slping each day,
i hope u're alone one fine day.
so that u know i'm waiting and will always be,
only here for u to see.
nthng matters as much as u do.
such that my life i'll lay it down to be with u.
an empty promise i'll nvr make,
i just know it's all for ur sake.
i'll think of u wearing a crown,
and i know i'll only be a stupid clown.
to put up a smile even when i tear,
it's e worst broken feeling when u lose smth so dear :(

Said that I love you.
But I have loved you all along..

~~Friday, July 23, 2010~~

4:53 AM

a ride in time i nvr took,
a ride like this is all a fluke.
making merry in times of sadness,
in slaying me bloody lies ur happiness.
e sleepless nights i long suffered,
oh for 2 mths how i've endured.
fell sick thinking if all was ok,
only to know e truth on a bloody friday.
a holy day they may say,
fuck u all it's a lie i say.

pain is not in the passing,
it comes most when u're not knowing.
kept in e dark with no visibility,
banished i was to e end of eternity.
broken though i was all along,
to shatter me she came like a swan.
captured my attention and my whole heart too,
she gave it to me broken in two.
now i'll need to mend it all,

just gimme time i'll be making a free fall.
leaving this place to sumwhere serene,
God grant me this strength frm within.
tough on the outside i might seem,
a girl can come and bend me like a beam.
i tried so hard to get a place,
little did i know that there's no solace.
no place within her tiny heart,
did i capture her, or was it fake frm e start.

Said that I love you.
But I have loved you all along..

~~Saturday, October 24, 2009~~

12:24 AM

A million stars may seem the same.
whatever i feel is still the pain.
destitute though i might seem,
unfit for this world is what is deemed.
bitches come,and mommas go.
but deep within i feel the flow.
A hangover from the last night,
what is to become of my plight.
tears of joy,that lead to misery.
a cry for a saviour that screams eternity.
to update the status that none know of,
i knew all along that everything was lost.
planks used once are later thrown,
an entity to all that is not shown.
i'll bet my life that it is true,
u'll come crying to me till u turn blue.
an idea i had is thoroughly not burning,
like a flame i had in mournful yearning.
breeders of hate,had no scrutiny.
over what i feel is MY DESTINY!
a cup thrown on e floor,
like a granny's stroll across the door.
pass e madness of it all,
my life seems to go at a bloody crawl.
laughters might deceive the tears,
but deeper than a needle can a woman not pierce?
pardon my sins and forgive my doubts.
i wish it were as simple as a cloud.
drinking though might calm my mind,
a personal grudge grown from within a twine.
a skunk that stinks is all that abuses,
nature's creation is now left for stooges.
a picture speaks a thousand words.
blossomed within is nothing but hurt.

Said that I love you.
But I have loved you all along..

~~Monday, April 13, 2009~~

8:59 PM

hate me and my attitude u say.
that's cos u dono i live a lie everyday.
to put an end to my wary ways.
dozens have tried,
but none have stayed.
u were there when i didn't want,
now u say u totally can't.
i'm gonna say this to u.
i hate myself for doing this too.
to caste that hate into ur heart,
that's e little i can do to play my part.
to watch u drift,
though it hurts.
at least i'll know i'm not a playa.
met one day,
when i din want to.
miss me much,
and planted a kiss too.
for a fren u claim it was,
but dun make urself same as a million whores.
held my hands when i didn't want to.
i knew i'll break within if looked at u.
looked into ur eyes for one moment though,
and i felt that great big blow.
all that day i did not do,
was just to recipocrate and say i love u.
though i dono and can't seem to adapt.
this might be how it's best.
i'll live alone thru all this yrs,
for girls i know always bring tears.
you don't want that,
and neither do i.
not a jealous man,
but females lie.
a tough time might lie ahead.
coming soon in my stead.
might lose my life over a want.
that's something though that can't be undone.
i'm always here wishing though,
that whatever happened was with a heart of gold.
seems to be a mortal wound,
i'm just gonna explode like a love-torn balloon.
to nvr speak or hear again.
frm this person,
who promised it's e end.
nothings gonna change my love for you.
You ought know by now how much I love you.
So come with me and share the view,
I'll help you see forever too.
a mistake i made was to come out last night.
meet up with one in a miserable plight.
went back hm all alone,
wishing u could heal that heart of stone.
lie to me and tell me though,
that all u did was just a show.
what i know i'm going through,
i nvr wanna see anyone like you.

Said that I love you.
But I have loved you all along..

~~Thursday, February 5, 2009~~

1:00 AM

thanks for e lies that u claim were true.
e moment u said those words i felt so blue.
disgusted frm e inside out.
now i know without a doubt.
ur words meant nothing,
neither did e kisses we shared.
thanks a million once again.
for giving unto me all this pain.
this hurt i feel.
i just hope it stops.
cos i know though that i can't hate u.
and i'll love u still.
be happy doing what u want.
but don't forget i'll no longer be at e forefront.
to change ur heart and ur mind.
it took lots of effort.
but all they meant to u was dirt.
my soulmate u'll be i thought within.
but little did i suspect that love was just a sin.
thanks again for leading me on,
cos i now know that it's all so wrong.
wat u had in mind i didn't know.
but it still is e greatest blow.
lose myself and my longing to live.
why did u have to appear so?
happily waiting for e day to come.
when GOD selects me and says "he's e next one".
i know that it won't hurt as much.
cos of u i'll be be gone without much.
to love a whore is not a sin.
but to be treated like one is so much true.
but why then did u mess me up if ur feelings weren't true?

Said that I love you.
But I have loved you all along..

~~Tuesday, February 3, 2009~~

12:31 AM

butterflies lay aflutter,
and of all places they chose my tummy.
u broke me down the other day.
and left me wondering why i was in e gutter.
this i wanna ask.
"why am i hurting again mummy?"
but answers can't be sought frm anyone other than u.
a week was wat u requested.
and gladly said i'm fine with it.
e confidence of winning ur heart,
to keep with mine.
but wat are these mind games that are going on?
emotional distress,and i'll long be gone.
going crazy day by day,
missing u badly night after night.
longing to hold u in my arms again.
to promise to nvr hurt ur little heart in vain.
trust my words,and i'll say it's true.
there's none other who i wanna be with,
apart from u.give me the chance.and let this be the night.
where u see me in a whole different light.
playful though i maybe.
this is not all of me.
e love i have for one like u.
it's e same that i have for my mummy too.
heartbreak that i can nvr let pass.
if u were to tell me that u've thought of giving me a pass.
the kisses we shared in e cab we took.
i like how ur eyes sparkled,like that of a crook.
different though u maybe.
this is what i'll say baby.
honour my words.and i'll ask u now.
will i be given e chance.
to take u to every ballroom dance.
a little mis-step we might have.
but let it pass with a little breath.
so i'll indirectly ask now.
am i not e one u want?
it's not like u're just someone.

Said that I love you.
But I have loved you all along..

~~Monday, February 2, 2009~~

2:02 AM

little did i know that things would turn out this way.
i feel like all this is part of a play.
a main character i once was.
discarded to be in e corner without a toss.
left my heart with u the first day we kissed.
this i know,u'll always be missed.
i can't keep u out of my mind.
how i wish everything was fine.
to hold u close and grab u tight.
to hug u till u lose ur breath.
till e moment my last has left.
u asked me how long i knew u.
and if i knew anything,
and that is true.
i know nuts,
but i honestly declare.
that love doesn't need a person to swear.
but i'll testify in honor of me.
that i loved u e 1st day i knew.
u're stuck onto me like a flu bug which never leaves,
and away with u my little heart flew.
heartbreaking though it may be.
i know then that this is it.
when u said that ur love was gone.
in a moment,in an instance.
i feel like i'm just here,to pay my penance.
but dear sugarpuff.
forget me now and forget me ever.
one day u'll realise my love is true.
gimme a chance,
that's all i ask for.
but please don't ever show me e door.
cos i know a blow like this is too hard to take.
and i'll nvr be like e rest who are fakes.
u wanna return my heart,
with all it's shattered pieces.
but just one fine day,
i hope i'll make u my own little missus
in agony and pain i write this down,
just love me again and take away my frown.
my darling,love and sugar u may be,
but my own sugarpuff is wat u'll be.
and that is for ETERNITY

Said that I love you.
But I have loved you all along..